1) Jessica Crumbley- Your my best friend, and your insane. We relate on so much and I'm so glad to have met you. I know you don't agree with some of my decisions, but you stay my friend and accept me anyway. I think that is the sign of a true friend, to accept the flaws of the other. You are the besstttt.
2) Mother Lynn- I wish you would understand where I'm coming from and listen to what I have to say before you butt in, or ignore my words as a naive teenager. Age doesn't bring wisdom, experience brings wisdom. Knowledge only goes as far as experience and you have not been in my situation before, so how would you know what to do and what is best for me? I wish you would let me make my own mistakes, and let me live my life the way I feel is right. You can't keep me in a box forever.
3) Jena- I wish you would put your morals before your money. No, you are not a bad person, but your not being the role model that you tried to be when you were younger. I find it hard to accept you as my sister, because I feel we are so different in many ways. Honestly some of my resentment probably comes out of jealousy, you have that perfect cookie-cutter look to you that so many girls strive for, and you don't appreciate it. You take all of your good fortune and act like you just deserve it. You do not know how it feels to go through hard times, because you have always been given whatever you want. I cannot blame you for being babied your whole life, but I can blame you for not growing up when you were sent on your own. I wish I could go back to my childhood and you would have been there, I feel like if I had grown up with you then I could understand you better.
4) Miss Marie- You might just be my dance teacher, but you have taught me so much more than ballet, tap, and jazz. You taught me self confidence, to love the person who I really am and to accept what life gives me and roll with it. You taught me to change up my schedule every day and to not live in the boring, but to live in the now. I used to think that ending class everyday screaming "I LOVE MYSELF!" was stupid, but now I see it taught me that it doesn't matter what other people think, what matters is to love myself and people will follow. You taught me not to sweat the little stuff and to roll with the punches that life sends us. You also taught me the value of not talking about people behind their back, your saying of "Don't tell everything you know," has stuck with me ever since I heard it. Basically, thank you for being my roll model every since I was 2.
5) Chris Jordan- You are one of the biggest jerks I have ever met. You are fine and sweet as long as I am on your good side, but you don't care. 2 summers ago you, me, and Bre were best friends. You were nice and funny and I could tell you anything but now, you don't care at all. The second you see an opportunity to make fun of me, you take it without giving it a second thought. I just wish I knew what I did to offend you in some way.
6) JR- You might not know, but I really look up to you. My whole life I have tried to be just like you, daring, adventurous, not afraid of anything, never let it show when I was upset, kept my cool in any situation, didn't really care about much. But I have recently learned that I am not you, and I will never be like you. So i would be pointless to attempt to be something, or somebody, I am not. I'm not blaming you, I'm blaming myself.
7) Breanna Steed- You are my best friend of all time, but recently I feel like we are drifting. I have no idea why though, I have no idea what I did for you to be avoiding me. I feel like our whole friendship I have been the one making the effort, so this time I'm not ignoring you, I'm just waiting to see if you will make the effort for once.
8) Tori Albritton- We used to be good friends, but not great, and now we are not even that. Honestly, I'm creeped out that you end up liking every guy I have ever liked. It's weird, and I wish you wouldn't. I wish you would respect boundaries, as I do for you. I wish you would stop putting on a show for other people, it's not fun being the only one of 3 people to know the real you. I wish you wouldn't act like this innocent person who is nice to everybody, when your so quick to backstab people. At least if I don't like somebody, I don't act like I do.
9) Lindsey Watts- We used to be best friends, but now I feel as if all that means nothing. I know we aren't going to be great friends, but I have always remembered the past and given you help when you needed it. We had stayed friends, or so I thought. Now I feel as if you play both sides of the fence depending on who you are around, and I cant stand people like that. So, until you apologize, I will remain mad. I will not forgive you until you admit it.
10) Devin Ivie- First off, it bugs me that spell check tells me your name is misspelled. Secondly, I love you. I feel that even though we have hard times in our relationship, we both know that we are meant to be together. We are not the typical high school relationship, we are something more. Something way more, we are special. What we have is a once in a lifetime thing, and it would be stupid to pass what we could have up. I'm willing to go through whatever to make us work, because there is something deep inside me that is telling me to keep trying, to not give up. I'm always here for you, trying my hardest to put myself out there and open up to you. I have made it a new goal to try to tell you something about me everyday. But sometimes I feel like you wont let me get words in, like you don't really want to listen to what I have so say. I'm ready to get back to what we had, at the beginning when everything was good and we were perfect with each other, when we could just be our goofy selves.
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