Day 6: 5 People Who Mean a lot to Me.

So I might be repeating some people on this but ohhhhh well.

1) Devin Thorne Ivie: And every single word of your name is supposedly misspelled. I cannot convey to you how much that annoys me. I love you so much and you are always there for me. We have been through, and are still sorting out, a lot, but I know we have so much farther to go. And I can't wait to get there.

2) Jessica Crumbley- You are my best friend. I tell you everything, because I know I can trust you with everything. I wish you understood how rare that is. Nobody else has gotten the privilege to hear my unfiltered words.

3) JR McDaniel- You are the best brother ever and I love you so much. I was blessed with such an interesting and real role model growing up.

4) Breanna Steed- You have been my best friend since 6th grade and you know my life story. I know I can always come to you for advice and help with problems. It seems like you always know what to say.

5) I guess to a normal person, this slot would be filled of one or both of their parents. But I can honestly say I do not care for my parents. We do not have a good relationship. So, until I figure this out, this number five will be left empty.

Day 5: 6 Things I Wish I Could Change About Me.

So today was a fun/annoying/average day. But I have to vent about something that has really been bugging me lately because this girl in my class is always talking about how she is ugly, gross, stupid etc. People worry to much about what other people think! I can't stand it. I'm not sure if this girl is just fishing for compliments or if she genuinely feels this way about herself, but either way it's stupid because she is fine just the way she is. I wish girls especially would realize this about themselves, that they are perfect just the way they are! And that it doesn't matter what other people think, especially guys, because the right guy is going to like her just the way she is. People who think this way cannot enjoy themselves because they are always worrying about how they look from other people's eyes. It's true beauty is in the eye of the beholder. So why should you worry about one persons opinion, when it is subject to change from person to person? It's ridiculous. (unless the are brats or something haha) Now that I got that out, on to the challenge.. and this will be ironic because my blog today is talking about thing I want to change about myself. haha


1) The first thing I wish I could change about myself is that I wish I could play the guitar. I know the basics, like the chords and stuff but I cannot actually play and I wish I could.

2) I wish I would stand up for myself more often. I have this problem of letting people walk all over me, and not speaking up for myself. If anything gets said at all in my defense, usually it is by somebody else and I'm tired of that.

3) I wish I was more athletic. I have always been into the girly stuff: Cheer, dance, pageants.. but I wish I had been put into soccer or softball or SOMETHING when I was a kid.

4) I wish I lived somewhere else. Winder is such an awful town, so boring and plain. THere are so many other beautiful places in the world and I wish I could have grown up ANYWHERE but here.

5) I wish I was older. I'm one of the youngest in my grade, and plus that I am sooo ready to just be at least 18 I can't stand it. I love the idea of being independent and making my own decisions, I can't wait.

6) I wish I could see my future actions, and how my present ones will influence them. It would be so much easier to make decisions if I knew which one was the right one, based on the future and what happens there.

Day 4: 7 Things that Cross My Mind a Lot.

First off, I would like to vent about my day, before I plunge into my day 4 topic.
In my grade, there are this group of guys who are the jerks of the school. Not even just our grade, but the whooooole school. They have been giving me a really hard time lately and it's really been bringing me down. Well, Devin found out about it and confronts them this afternoon after school, after I asked him not to. But anyway, this dude Chris is being a smart mouth and when Devin asked them about it, they all deny it like idiots. So Devin turns to leave, and then Chris says some smart comment and Devin goes off in his face. Then they got sent to Coach Grant's office, but they didn't get into trouble because nothing really happened. But, it was stressful and annoying all in all.

Now to start my challenge:

1) Them main thought that stays in my mind all the time is Devin. We have all had that somebody that we just can't get out of our head, and he is mine.

2) What is for supper?
I always have food on my mind, haha.

3) Why does my hair hate me?
It never wants to do what I want it to do, and it does not grow fast enough.

4) Why do I have to put up with such stupid people?
If you have ever been to Winder-Barrow High School you would understand.

5) What am I going to wear?
I never, ever have anything to wear to my satisfactory. Ever.

6) I'm sooooooo tired.
I can never get enough sleep. It seems like no matter what, and no matter how early I go to sleep, in the morning I wake up sleepy!

7) What time is it?
I am obsessed with knowing the time. If I don't know the time, I go absolutely insane!

Day 3: 8 Things I Can't Live Without.

I'm going to try to make this quick, because I have a llottttt of homework.

1) The most important thing for me, is SPRITE. I cannot live without Sprite. One day, I will buy stock in Sprite, and make a fortune simply from my purchases alone.


2) My phone. Without it I am lost in the world.


3) Mane N' Tail Shampoo and Conditioner. It helps your hair grow, which is my focus at the moment.


4) Kraft Macaroni and Cheese. Enough said.


5) My ballet and tap shoes. Dancing is my one thing where I can get all my emotions out, and get my mind off things. I love it sooooo much, and without it my life is incomplete.


6) Maybelline Define-a-Line eye liner. This is the best eye liner I have ever used, ever.


7) Ray- Ban sunglasses, I love them so much :)


8) Last but nowhere near the least, is:

My friends,


My family,


and My Boyfriend. :)

Day 2: 9 Things Most People Don't Know About Me..

This is going to be hard, because I can't think of 9 things that are interesting about me, sorry if I disappoint.

Two things I'm embarrassed about, that I haven't told a lot of people because I'm worried of their reaction is:
1) I'm anemic.
2) I am slightly deaf in my left ear.

I know I mentioned these two in an earlier post, but they also apply here, so yeah.

3) My biggest pet peeve is when people step on the back of my shoe when I am walking. DON'T WALK THAT CLOSE BEHIND ME. And if you do, you better apologize, if you don't you are officially on My List.

4) I have always been into poetry. I think it's so cool to read a poem, and never really know what the writer means when they wrote it. They are speaking out of their heart, and since we were not there when they wrote it we will never know. Unless they told us, but sometimes they don't even know. I think it tells a lot about a person.

5) Sprite is my biggest addiction, I have to have one sprite a day, at the LEAST. If it's not in the house I get angry, and I always have one in my hand or by my side when I am at home.

6) History is my favorite subject, I love learning about the past and connecting it to the present. My dream job would to work at a smithsonian in Washington, D.C. I want to be a museum curator when I grow up because I think it's so much fun to go and look at history and artifacts from year and years ago made by people who don't exist anymore.

7) I have a problem with opinions. I love listening to people, but sometimes I fear that I take their opinion into too much consideration. I'm scared that one day somebody's opinion will influence me into doing something that I know is wrong, that I don't want to do. But I will do it anyway because the person is such a convincing talker. They will spin the bad situation, into a good one.. they will make it seem like the right thing to do. I'm scared that one day I will meet that person and then I won't know what to do.

8) I have a problem with anger. I keep things bottled up inside me for so long, so when it finally comes out it explodes like a bad case of diarrhea. I also have a problem with telling people my problems. Day to day my mind is a jumbled mess that even I can't make sense of, so talking about it is next to impossible. Writing them down is the only way I can get them in some sort of order to keep myself sane.

9) I hate this little town of Winder more than anything else on Earth. The second I turn 18 I'm going as far away as possible, and then when I graduate college I'm going to move a long long way from here. Once I have a family of my own I am never coming back, ever, ever, ever.

Day 1: 10 things you want to say to 10 people right now.

1) Jessica Crumbley- Your my best friend, and your insane. We relate on so much and I'm so glad to have met you. I know you don't agree with some of my decisions, but you stay my friend and accept me anyway. I think that is the sign of a true friend, to accept the flaws of the other. You are the besstttt.

2) Mother Lynn- I wish you would understand where I'm coming from and listen to what I have to say before you butt in, or ignore my words as a naive teenager. Age doesn't bring wisdom, experience brings wisdom. Knowledge only goes as far as experience and you have not been in my situation before, so how would you know what to do and what is best for me? I wish you would let me make my own mistakes, and let me live my life the way I feel is right. You can't keep me in a box forever.

3) Jena- I wish you would put your morals before your money. No, you are not a bad person, but your not being the role model that you tried to be when you were younger. I find it hard to accept you as my sister, because I feel we are so different in many ways. Honestly some of my resentment probably comes out of jealousy, you have that perfect cookie-cutter look to you that so many girls strive for, and you don't appreciate it. You take all of your good fortune and act like you just deserve it. You do not know how it feels to go through hard times, because you have always been given whatever you want. I cannot blame you for being babied your whole life, but I can blame you for not growing up when you were sent on your own. I wish I could go back to my childhood and you would have been there, I feel like if I had grown up with you then I could understand you better.

4) Miss Marie- You might just be my dance teacher, but you have taught me so much more than ballet, tap, and jazz. You taught me self confidence, to love the person who I really am and to accept what life gives me and roll with it. You taught me to change up my schedule every day and to not live in the boring, but to live in the now. I used to think that ending class everyday screaming "I LOVE MYSELF!" was stupid, but now I see it taught me that it doesn't matter what other people think, what matters is to love myself and people will follow. You taught me not to sweat the little stuff and to roll with the punches that life sends us. You also taught me the value of not talking about people behind their back, your saying of "Don't tell everything you know," has stuck with me ever since I heard it. Basically, thank you for being my roll model every since I was 2.

5) Chris Jordan- You are one of the biggest jerks I have ever met. You are fine and sweet as long as I am on your good side, but you don't care. 2 summers ago you, me, and Bre were best friends. You were nice and funny and I could tell you anything but now, you don't care at all. The second you see an opportunity to make fun of me, you take it without giving it a second thought. I just wish I knew what I did to offend you in some way.

6) JR- You might not know, but I really look up to you. My whole life I have tried to be just like you, daring, adventurous, not afraid of anything, never let it show when I was upset, kept my cool in any situation, didn't really care about much. But I have recently learned that I am not you, and I will never be like you. So i would be pointless to attempt to be something, or somebody, I am not. I'm not blaming you, I'm blaming myself.

7) Breanna Steed- You are my best friend of all time, but recently I feel like we are drifting. I have no idea why though, I have no idea what I did for you to be avoiding me. I feel like our whole friendship I have been the one making the effort, so this time I'm not ignoring you, I'm just waiting to see if you will make the effort for once.

8) Tori Albritton- We used to be good friends, but not great, and now we are not even that. Honestly, I'm creeped out that you end up liking every guy I have ever liked. It's weird, and I wish you wouldn't. I wish you would respect boundaries, as I do for you. I wish you would stop putting on a show for other people, it's not fun being the only one of 3 people to know the real you. I wish you wouldn't act like this innocent person who is nice to everybody, when your so quick to backstab people. At least if I don't like somebody, I don't act like I do.

9) Lindsey Watts- We used to be best friends, but now I feel as if all that means nothing. I know we aren't going to be great friends, but I have always remembered the past and given you help when you needed it. We had stayed friends, or so I thought. Now I feel as if you play both sides of the fence depending on who you are around, and I cant stand people like that. So, until you apologize, I will remain mad. I will not forgive you until you admit it.

10) Devin Ivie- First off, it bugs me that spell check tells me your name is misspelled. Secondly, I love you. I feel that even though we have hard times in our relationship, we both know that we are meant to be together. We are not the typical high school relationship, we are something more. Something way more, we are special. What we have is a once in a lifetime thing, and it would be stupid to pass what we could have up. I'm willing to go through whatever to make us work, because there is something deep inside me that is telling me to keep trying, to not give up. I'm always here for you, trying my hardest to put myself out there and open up to you. I have made it a new goal to try to tell you something about me everyday. But sometimes I feel like you wont let me get words in, like you don't really want to listen to what I have so say. I'm ready to get back to what we had, at the beginning when everything was good and we were perfect with each other, when we could just be our goofy selves.

The 10 Day Blogging Challenge

The 10 Day Blogging Challenge has been accepted by yours truly.

Day 1: 10 things you want to say to ten people.
Day 2: 9 things most people don't know about you.
Day 3: 8 things you couldn't live without.
Day 4: 7 things that cross your mind a lot.
Day 5: 6 things you wish you could change, or go back and redo.
Day 6: 5 people who mean a lot to you.
Day 7: 4 turn offs.
Day 8: 3 turn ons.
Day 9: 2 words that describe your life right now.
Day 10: 1 confession.

Here we go..

I Carry Your Heart.

I carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart
I am never without it, anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling.

I fear no fate for you are my fate, my sweet
I want no world for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart;

I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart.

Party of One.

I have neglected to give any real self-description on who I am, so now, I will.



I go by my middle name, Hannah.
My full name is Sara Hannah Sims.
I have been dancing for 13 years.
My birthday is August 14, 1995.
I'm allergic to yellow jackets.
My favorite color is red.
My favorite animal is the Beluga Whale.
I hate math.
I like cheeseburgers.
I want to be a museum curator when I grow up.
I have one brother, JR. He is a Marine and lives in Hawaii.
I have one sister, Jena. She resides in California.
I'm slightly deaf in my left ear.
I'm the second youngest person in my entire grade.
I smile and laugh a lot, and I like to listen to people talk.
I want to visit every country in the world before I die.
When I turn 16 I'm going sky diving with my brother.
If I had the money, I would attempt Mount Everest.
I'm a very picky eater, and a lot of stuff I have never tried.
My favorite movie of all time is The Goonies.
I have an unusually short tongue.
I put things off to the last minute because I love the thrill of a deadline, and if I'll make it or not.
I have trouble explaining things and I like to think long and hard about something before I say it, if I am allowed enough time to do so.
Never again will I drink pickle juice.
Say what you want about her, but I will always love Brittany Spears and I got my picture made with her star on the Walk of Fame in Hollywood.
I believe nobody is "simple". There is always more to a person than you will ever know because you cannot read their thoughts every minute of every day.
While I'm on the subject, reading minds would be my super power if I were to be able to choose one.
I hate crowds, and heights.
But I love roller coasters. Love them.
I don't know what I would do for a Klondike Bar, because I have never had one.
I like knowing random facts. For instance: The United States has never lost a war where mules were involved, the numbers '172' can be found on the back of the U.S. $5 dollar bill in the bushes at the base of the Lincoln Memorial, and the Main Library at Indiana University sinks over an inch every year because when it was built, engineers failed to take into account the weight of all the books that would occupy the building.
Blowing bubbles calms me.
I hate Cinderella. And when I was nine and went to Disney World with Lindsey Watts, I threw my empty water bottle at her.
I'm anemic.
I do not like to talk about my feelings, or problems. Which is why I have made this blog. I'm not telling anybody, people are just reading it if the happen to.
That is all I can think of right now...

:)

Fences

Nobody reads this, so tonight, I will vent to nobody. I hate people who play both sides of the fence, if you don't like somebody- DON'T ACT LIKE IT! Your wasting your time. If you don't like somebody, don't pretend like everything is hunky-dory, because obviously it's not. If you don't like somebody, don't talk to them, don't talk about them, and don't think about them. It's not a big deal. If you ignore them, unless they are the most annoying person on the planet or just a plain idiot, or both- they will ignore you too. And then the problem is solved! It doesn't require being a genius, just a mature person.

Okay, I'm semi-good now.

Sash and Crown

What do you get when you add glitter, heels, hairspray, and girls who train their voices to not hold any accent? A pageant. More specifically, a beauty pageant. What makes these things so appealing to little girls and women all over our country? Why do they feel the need to parade around a stage in a bathing suit? Is it for the crown, or do they think the flowers are pretty? Our culture is obsessed with what we define as "pretty", as skinny you can get until your diagnosed with a disease, with large breasts and a big behind. Women have gone as far as to get surgery to achieve these high and impossible standards set by ourselfs, the people we see everyday. The whole point of a pageant is to tell one girl, "Hey, you are the prettiest girl on this stage right now." Isn't that what the winners are? They are saying that the 4th runner up is pretty, but hey the 3rd is prettier than her, and the 2nd is even prettier, the 1st runner up is more prettier than her, however the winner is the prettiest of them all; she is prettier than all of you. One thing I know, I don't need to walk and spin around on stage for 3 minutes in order to be judged by people I have never met on how much make-up I have on, or how well I walk in heels to feel pretty.

MORONS!

How would you describe high school? Well I guess you could start off with saying that it is filled with hundreds of people you don't want to see, with teachers who really don't want to see you, add in homework, and the last thing of all: gossip. What is it about high schoolers that make them care so much about other people's business? Or worse, what compels people to make up false rumors about somebody knowing it is going to do nothing but hurt them? Your answer for this question, is in the question: to hurt them! Never really thinking the whole thing through about exactly how much effect it will have on the other person, teens will make up such stories and spread them like wild fire. The funny thing is, most will never stop and think to themselves, "Is this true?" or "Maybe I should go talk to the other person and hear their side of the story." They assume that because one person said it, it must be true, or why else would they say it? MORONS! Most fights, burning of bridges, are usually caused by false accusations against somebody else. Why are we so quick to burn bridges and hurt each others feelings? Why is it so hard for people to admit wrongs? Are we so caught up in this short 4 year span of high school that we forget one day we will never see these people ever again? Why don't we make the best of this time that we know each other, and cherish it. Because one thing I do know, if people spread the word of God with the same fever as they spread rumors, this world would be a different place.

Brouhaha

I'm seriously debating on killing off every spanish speaking person in the world. That way it would become a dead language and I wouldn't have to learn it. I swear, this class is going to kill me. I don't even know why I should learn it, english has been working fine for me for the past 15 years. I will end up failing this class because of my stupid teacher. I don't learn by fun stuff. That sounds weird but I learn by organized notes, and we never take them! We copy down words then play a game of the words we copied down and I DON'T KNOW THEM. What the heck. I give up.